One of my goals this year is to become a healthy, happy, half of a Haley. What is this goal you might ask? Well, I not only want to be healthy {my doctor told me I have the blood work of a 16 year old}, but want to look it too. I want to walk into a store and not worry about what sizes are available. I want to be happy with the way I look and feel. You have no idea how many times I've teared up in a dressing room because I'm frustrated that something doesn't fit when I know it should.
The funny thing is that I really and truly wake up every morning and think "dang, I look good!" No kidding. I really am being honest. I might have the highest self-esteem of anyone you know {which is good since I stand up in front of large audiences giving 4 hour trainig seminars}. I'm blissfully ignorant of the real world until it slaps me right in the face with pants that won't button, a blouse that is too tense, or a picture of myself with someone else. I really don't have a very good perception of my size or what I look like until I see a picture of myself with someone that I think is about my size. Very inaccurate perception indeed. One of my friends hit the nail on the head when she told me I lived in a land of fluffy clouds and puppy dogs. At the time she was talking about the fact that I think everyone in the world is good {or has some good qualities} but it really carries over into my life.
I lost 27 pounds in mid-2009 only to gain 22 of them back when I started school full-time along with 40+ hours a week at work. It isn't an excuse; it was a necessity. I NEEDED caffeine and fast food {okay maybe I didn't NEED them, but it was easier}. So, here's what I'm doing to reach my goal:
- Drink water, limit coffee, tea, juice, and anything else with calories.
- NO sodas
- NO fast food
- NO sweets that are purchased pre-made {this includes ice cream, brownies, cookies, etc...}, but we can have anything we cook at home {such as a cake, pie, or cookies made from scratch}
- Prepare healthy meals at home and take left-overs or other prepared meals to work
- Get back into my routine {and try to pull Lee into it} of running 10-15 miles per week
- Complete a 10k before the end of May
- Donate clothes that are too big to Goodwill, or sell them at thrift stores
- Take an honest look at myself every Sunday {meaning weigh myself and try on the same pair of pants to see where I'm at...I obviously have no perception as previously stated}
Lee and I haven't had fast food or sodas since the beginning of the year. We're both always thirsty, so drinking tons of water has been no problem at all. We did stop at DQ with my parents {the Hawaiian Blizzard was calling my name} but that has been our only purchased dessert. We were both sick, but I ran 3 miles today {what a beating} and Lee is going to start coming with me once he's feeling better.
I'm even thinking about starting a separate blog to chronicle the whole thing. I'm not great at updating this one, but I'm trying to be better. Here's to trying.....
